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Sunday, September 26, 2004

I'VE BEEN DAZED AND CONFUSED FOR SO LONG ITS NOT TRUE....

Music: Nine Inch Nails (The Downward Spiral) �thanks alison�
Mood: Sleepy/bored

Hmm...I really like this song Hurt by NIN..its lovely. But, Anyways..this last week has been crazy...I broke up with Joe..and I dont wanna go into that. But then everybodys been like freaking out lately. I donno, like nobody wants to be here any more..We are all sooo sick of school..I know I am...Damn Biology, Damn Geometry, Damn Civics....ok, enough.

Yesterday was uh...hell-ish, my friends having break downs, and I was saposed to be fasting for Yom Kippur..but I couldn't because I had a soccer game. I didnt even get to go to temple..I felt really bad. The soccer game sucked...I had to play goalie..>.< I'm so sick of goalie. But oh well. I stayed in a vurry good mood through out the day. Just gotta stay happy.

I was thinking about revamping my blog...maybe more of a Red and Black combo..but I'm way too lazy..plus too many other people have those colors...

Today I have to go and work on the Banner for the Homecoming Game for our grade...Urgghh Homecoming..I dont know if I wanna go...My parents are going to be out of town in ohio from like Thursday to Monday or something. So I'm going to be staying over Meghans house for a while, and then Julies house. I want to have some kinda party thingie while they are out of town, but my mom's got the neighbors like keeping an eye on the house, well as my mom said it, "So you dont have any kind of "boys" over." I dont understand my parents, like they'll let guys almost like sleep over my house when they are home, but when they aren't they wont even let them come over...w/e I'm not going to fight about it...

Hmm this has been a boring entry....I donno..i think i'm kinda bored with my blog...*blah*

okie....Buh Bye Lovlies...

��ALESHA�� <~ woah thats crazy trippy..heh

Wait I think this entry needs a Pic or two..ok how bout a pic of the doors...mmmm..

Thats a nice Pic....mm..Jim...

Posted at 9/26/2004 11:33:13 am by ATLesha
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Saturday, September 18, 2004

You are just like an angel, your skin makes me cry

Music: Radiohead (pablo honey) !!!Creep!!! i heart this song

Mood: down from being on alot of sugar

1 2 3 MOO! <~ there rafi...you happy now?

Oooh..today was awesomly awesome..heh..a few people came over me house today (Alison, Rafi, Mehran, Christina, Charlotte, Trevor, Chris) because i was feeling sad b/c i got like 4 teeth pulled and some other reasons..but it was fun, we where just chilling out in my room for a while playing my Guitars and then we walked down to the park and hung out and scared the little children and then we went and found bijan and got him to bring his video camera and we made this weird movie of random stuff..fun times..

and then mostly everyone left except Rafi and Mehran

and they stayed till like 10..but it was fun times...I mean jeeez..they where at my house for like 8 hours..woah

Mmmm..i'm sleepy...today was a long day

but this weekend has rocked! i mean its been like a 4 day weekend! yay for hurricane Ivan!!

Posted at 9/18/2004 10:45:32 pm by ATLesha
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Sunday, September 05, 2004

I'm so proud of myself! I wrote a Poem!! *yay*

Go Alesha!! *W00t* I wrote a poem! Hell yes! I never write poems...ever..maybe because i think i suck at writing them...I prolly do..heh...Well I'm gonna post the poem...Leave me a tag and tell me if you liked it and if you didn't ...

Oh and...dont ask me who its about..I really dont know...Its like 5 of my guyfriends (and ex-guy friends) mixed into one person so..here we gooo.....

"A Heart that was never there" By: Alesha Burk

Small liquid drops of sadness dance lifelessly upon my cheaks.

I wipe them slowly away from my freshly shattered soul.

He broke my life into pieces and arranged them on the cold floor,

I could only marvel at his wonderous ways,

He would slice away his pain,

and store it in his heart for later.

The day I found him,

Later would be no more.

He carefully boxed away his pain and set it in a dark corner upon a dusty shelf,

I told him he could leave it there,

Abandon it forever more.

But the days grew longer and the nights colder.

He would gaze longingly at his small box sitting on that dark shelf,

He took it away from its shelf and let it engulf him in countless memories of pain and hurt.

He sat there for hours,

the pain sourrounded and sufficated him,

Until he dug deep into his box and pulled out the very last memory.

The memory swarmed neartest to his soul and entered,

The memory was of me.

His mind came to the surface gasping for air,

But he left behind his heart for the pain to devower.

That night, his heart broke.

It broke into millions of tiny pieces and exploded out of its caged body,

It floated around the world, out into the unknown,

Searching for anyone who would hear its story.

For thousands of years he wandered to many lands,

Searching for a heart that was never really his,

Until he found himself at my door nocking gentally,

I let him in,

He shared his story, of a heart broke from pain.

I told him that I'd heard of it before,

Losing a heart that was never there.

We talked for many hours,

Catching up on old times that had escaped from his thoughts long ago.

I filled his empty body with thoughts of love and kind.

I poured my soul into his absent heart.

That night he walked home to his dark corner with his dusty shelf,

His whole body filled to the brim with warmth and love.

He sat in his dark corner and he thought of me,

Slowly building up the frame of his heart,

Repairing every hole, every crack with a different memory of me.

That morning he awoke to find a new heart sitting on that same dusty shelf.

He flew to my door to share his new found beauty with mine.

I let him in,

He told me of his new treasure and he asked me of mine.

I told him it was nowere to be found.

He stared at me in utter disbelief,

He searched every shelf in my soul.

When nothing was found,

I told him last night while I tryed to repair his broken heart

I had accidently broken mine....

Eh, it got spaced out weird..but oh Well thats it..tell me what you think of it..thankz lovlies...�Alesha�

Posted at 9/5/2004 2:10:03 pm by ATLesha
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004

I dont wanna be an American Idiot

Music: AOL Led Zeppelin Radio
Mood: Sleepy but Happy

I'm actually going to make an entry..*go me* usually I'll start them and then i just give up because I'm like, gawd, I have nothing to say...But even know I dont have that much to say...

Well now, most people know, I go out with Joe now...yay..nothing much to say about it..i'm just not used to having a boyfriend..oh well

dammit its gonna log me off...heres a pic. from Spirited Away..I heart that movie..

Posted at 9/1/2004 7:19:11 pm by ATLesha
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Friday, August 27, 2004

I can still hear you when you dream..

Music: {Rotten Apples} Smashing Pumpkins greatest hits (thanks to trevor!)
Mood: Very Nervous

Oy Vey..I'm like freaking out. Tonight I went Moe's with my buddies...which was so damn fun...Kinky times! Kinky times! heh. I love my kinky friends!..yay!

Well, everybody left except Alison and Chris..and they both knew who I liked..so ALison calls *** and asks *** if he likes me..and he said he does..so right now everything is kinda messed..Because Sheila just called me and she was at a decatur high football game, and about 3 weeks ago i met this guy who went there, who i thoguht was really hot and I got his # but i chickened out, but...he was at the football game..and sheila was talking to him..and I dont know what happened with that...but its weird..that guy just keeps on poping up..

....I just dont know what to do with my self......

Posted at 8/27/2004 9:22:54 pm by ATLesha
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004

I'm gonna dance hall dance all EVERY DAY!

Guess what everybody!!..I got bored again..so heres another one of my damn thingies

Relationships:
01. Fallen for your best (guy) friend? Too many times..
02. Made out with JUST a friend? Nope
03. Been rejected? Not too badly
04. Been in love? I'm not really sure anymore
05. Been in lust? Oh yea
06. Used someone? I regret it..but yes
07. Been used? Yea, prolly
08. Cheated on someone? Never
09. Been cheated on? Not that I know of..but i may have been
10. Been kissed? Yea
11. Done something you regret? All the time

Who was the last person...
12. You touched? Mother
13. You talked to? Father
14. You hugged? oh, I havent hugged someone in a while..i think last person...Thrasher..*nasty* i know
15. You instant messaged? Rafii
Instant Messaged You? Charlotte
16. Kissed? I dont remember
17. You had sex with? Everyone!! yay...Nope, noone
18. You yelled at? Prolly one of the stoners
19. You laughed with? my buddy Bijan on the way home
20. You had a crush on? I dont know anymore..its just a big munndly jummbley mush
21. Broke your heart? Too embarassed to say..but we broke each others hearts

22. Color your hair? Nope
23. Have tattoos? I wish..
24. Piercings? I wish..
25. Floss daily? Most of the time
26. Own a webcam? Nopee
27. Ever get off the damn computer? Once in a while...well most of the time

General Questions:
40. Considered a life of crime? hehe..yeah, why not
41. Considered being a hooker? hhaha, Everyday! hehe j/k Hell No
42. Considered being a pimp? Yea, everyday i think to my self..i should be a pimp...(its my life goal)
43. Are you psycho? Oh yea
44. Split personalities? Yea some where up there..I'm insane
45. Schizophrenic? Only sometimes...
46. Obsessive? Only over 2 things (Rock music and Guys)
47. Obsessive compulsive? Over those 2 things.
48. Panic? I guess
49. Anxiety? Sure.
50. Depressed? not to often..Ima happy camper
51. Suicidal? Never
52. Obsessed with Hate? No way.
53. Dream of mutilated bodies? Icky...no..
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? Huh? No..
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Hanging out with me buddies...i Heart you guys
56. What would you be doing? It depends
58. What are you listening to? MODEST MOUSE *yay!*.
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? Nothing that freakish..I'm not a very talented person.
60. Chicken or fish? Chicken! it makes me happy..well most food makes me happy...i like food..
61. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? Eh, I donno, they all are neato

Currently:
62. Current Clothes: My lame-o Shamrock 8A field day T and my Pimpin' sponge bob boxers.
63. Current Mood: Worried..b/c i should be doing my hw....I'm a rebel
64. Current Taste: Mint and chocolate Ice cream
65. Current Hair: Up.
66. Current Annoyance: Homework *dammit*
67. Current Smell: I'm not really sure...icky
68. Current thing I ought to be doing: I told you...Homework
69. Current Desktop Picture: Jim Morrison and the Doors..*drools* hes such a hotty
70. Current Favorite Group: I donno..I'm going through a Doors/Led Zeppelin/Modest Mouse stage.
71. Current Book: The Secret Life of Bees and Animal farm and The Great Gadsby and..others..I'm going throught a reading stage too
72. Current DVD In Player: Nightmare Before Christmas (its the perfect Jew movie *heh* And its awesomly awesome).
73. Current Refreshment: None.
74. Current Worry: People and Homework.
75. Current Favorite Celebrity: Does Jim Morrison count?

Favorites:
76. Food: mmm...Srimp Lo Mein *Chinese food Rocks!*
77. Drink: Jack Daniels..J/k..hmmm...SoBe!
78. Color: Red and Black.
79. Shoes: I donno..Flip-flops
80. Candy: I have a weird obsession with Smarties.
81. Animal: donno..Humans
82. Movie: October Sky ...I Heart Jake Gyllenhaal
83. Dance: i dont dance...
84. Vegetable: Carrots..MMmmm

Future:
85. What do you want to be when you get older?: I donno yet..for now..Rock band
86. Married?: Yea..I guess.
87. Kids?: Someday.
88. Living Where?: England....

This or That:
89. Gay or straight: Straight.
90. Boxers or Briefs: isnt that like a guys question.
91. Reading or Writing: Reading.
93. Walking or Running: Walking is a lways better
94. Left or Right: Right.
95. TV Shows or Movies: ???
96. Britney or Christina: *pukes* Niether..icky icky whores
97. Rap or Rock: Rock !!!
98. Day or Night: Night.

Posted at 8/24/2004 7:39:04 pm by ATLesha
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Saturday, August 21, 2004

All these people that you know floating in the river are logs

Music: Modest Mouse...I have a deep love for them now..well maybe I should say..Obsession
Mood: Crapped out (I'm sick..I feel icky)

Last night was so much fun fun...I missed all my DHHS buddies, It was so awesome to see Nate, I missed him tons..and I missed Anna! and even thought me and Speno arent as good friends as we used to be..It was cool seeing him. I love you guys!!

Its not like a ton of stuff happend last night, it was just fun..just like old times...*tears* I wanna transfer to Druid hills...

"Eyes that shine burning red, dreams of you all through my head." Random Led Zeppelin lyric

I'm having one of my mellow days...mellow music...Modest mouse, Bob Marley, Pink FLoyd, RHCP..yea, I'm having fun.

Oh yea..the point of this entry..I'm getting guitar lessons! *does happy dance* Yup! I might have this guy, Jamieson, whos like only 20 but he's super good. But...I'm at a crossroads...When I first got my guitar I named it Ted, but then Ted went retarded (His neck got warped really really bad) so we had to return him b/c he was unfixable. and I jsut got another one that was the same. And I named him Slash (after Slash the guitarist of VR and GnR) but...I think I still like the name Ted for him...WHAT SHOULD I DO?.....?????????????? what do you think...?

I'm such a confused monkey...I dont know shit anymore...I cant even run my own life...Stupid Alesha..gawd i just had to re-type my name like 5 times, i kept on spelling it wrong..haha

NOOO! I lost me Jim Morrison icon! WHy!? woah..I just noticed..Jim Morrison looks like some one I know...creepy, very creepy indeed

Ever notice how random I am..I cant even stay on one subject for more then one sentence..oh well

I Need someone to like....I havent liked anyone (I mean really liked someone) for...about 4 months, isnt that sad..I think it is
Its depressing..
oh K..Well, thats enough for now....Good Bye Lovlies...I'm going back to Suffergett City! ALLRIGHT!!!

Posted at 8/21/2004 5:38:27 pm by ATLesha
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Saturday, August 14, 2004

I'm getting out.

                       I'm damn sick of everyone...Nobodys really REAL any more,
                                                Everyones just trying to be someone they're not
               I only know about 5 REAL people...only 5. thats sad, and I'm not even counting my self
                                       I need more good people in my life.
                                                       Maybe they can help....

Hey..look, its a song...

Read it... Its a nice one "The View"

Your gun went off.
Well you shot off your mouth and look where it got you.
My mouth runs on too.

Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
Well now here's the clue.

Life it rents us.
And yeah I hope it put plenty on you.
Well I hope mine did too.

As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
then I feel pretty blissfully.

Your gun went off.
Well you shot off your mouth and look where it got you.
My mouth runs on too.

Shouts from both sides,
"Well we've got the land but they've got the view!"
Well now here's the clue.

We are fixed right where we stand.

Life it rents us.
And yeah I hope it put plenty on you.
Well I hope mine did too.

We are fixed right where we are.

As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well if feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.

For every invention made how much time did we save?
We're not much farther than we were in the cave.

As life gets longer, awful feels softer,
and it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.

If life's not beautiful without the pain,
well I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again.
Well as life gets longer, awful feels softer.
And it feels pretty soft to me.

For every good deed done there is a crime committed.
We are fixed.
For every step ahead we could have just been seated.
We are fixed.

As life gets longer, awful feels softer.
Well it feels pretty soft to me.
And if it takes shit to make bliss,
well I feel pretty blissfully.

We are fixed.
We are fixed.
We are fixed right where we stand.

Posted at 8/14/2004 3:35:22 pm by ATLesha
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Friday, August 13, 2004

Pardon Me while I burst into Flames...

Mood: Peppy
Music: Incubus

Mall tonight, I think. Well I hope... I'm trying to call all these people but they're not home, dammit! blah! I hope that guy is at the mall...News flash...I think I might like someone (!!!) But I'm not telling any of you bitches (Sorry, I just cant, anytime I tell you ppl who I like someone blabs, and then the guy finds out, and I dont feel like going through that shit, if you know what I mean) I'm so happy!!!!!
I get to see..
NATE! (well maybe) and!

CHARLOTTE! yay! yay !yay!

this whole planing is getting on my nerves! ahh!...I just wanna go to the mall and ligght fireworks dammit!!

yay I'm happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cant say why but damn I'm happy!!

Posted at 8/13/2004 5:21:38 pm by ATLesha
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Thursday, August 12, 2004

Come on Baby light my Fire

I've started high school... *claps for me*..I really dont have much to say about it, just trying to do my best and acting smart-ish....

Lately I have had a really quite bad problem...I'M OBSESSED WITH JIM MORRISON...
Sexy Sexy man

Why?!! WHY?? do all the hot ones die.!? I Heart the Doors! And guess what!! AOL has a very own station for the Doors!!!! yay! AND LED ZEPPELIN!! I'm in heaven...

Enough with the Doors...

School... School is entertaining, I guess... I got my locker yesterday! yay! I'm sorrounded by guys..Rafi, Joe, Ben, and new guy Pat, and some other upper class guys, not to mention, a semi hot guy right next to me *Score!* hehe

I havent had much time to find a new hot guy to talk to. Oh well! dammit AOL radio isnt working, I want my Rolling Stones..Eh, I'll just listen to Radiohead Mmm Karma Police, thats an awesome song

Posted at 8/12/2004 4:55:15 pm by ATLesha
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